life simplified. we are doing our best.
life is crazy. time is passing me by and i don't feel like i have a minute, a second even, to actually be in it. to enjoy it. to breathe in everything around me and count my blessings. i have a lot of them.
i forced myself to sit at my computer today and hull through images this morning. i opened up this folder from our thanksgiving trip up north and broke down into tears. these pictures are in no way perfect, but it is my family. them being them. i love my family. more then words could ever express. on a daily basis i am constantly fighting an inner battle of self doubt as to whether or not i am giving them enough. am i doing all i can to protect them, to love them, to provide for them, to encourage them, and to teach them. am i doing all i can so as to not screw them up. kids are like a parents best recipe. a little of this, a lot of that, and when you realize something isn't working you substitute it for something else.
baker recently was out golfing and when i checked in via text message he wrote back to tell me that he was playing awful and wasn't having fun. without blinking i replied "just do your best and make the most of it." i quickly realized i wasn't living my own advice. i spend a lot of time and energy battling my own self doubts. the bottom line.
i am doing my best.
some days my best is worse then the day before. on a good day, better. but for me right now, in this moment, i am doing my best. that is all i could ever ask from my kids. to give it their all and do their best. so for them i can do the same.
6 comments:
Jenny the slideshow awesome. So perfect! You are a great mom and the fact that you are questioning yourself while your kids are young is actually a good thing. I never did and now I feel like I missed so much in teaching them because I wasn't worried about it. I thought "how could i screw this up??" Now I see, just how much you can screw it up! When you kids are big you will begin to see all the wonderful things you did do!! <3 you!!
well said! all we can do is our best. great lesson to teach our kids. i miss you. let's hang out this week.
Well I think your best is pretty damn great! I have those same feelings all the time. Love u sister!!! Can't wait to see you in a couple weeks and to squeeze lil Blaire.
this slideshow makes me miss you :( i need to hold your kids and cuddle up with you on the couch and talk. miss my sister! you are a great mom jenn, and we are so lucky for your wonderful example in our family. love you.
Jenn, the slideshow wasn't working for me earlier, but now it is and I just got done watching and loved every second of it. It tells such a great story. I wish every kid had a Nanny, Boppa and Auntie Mimi. Seriously I loved it. Jenn, I feel like your photography is spiritual. Does that make sense? I love it! THanks for sharing. I love when you blog. :)
INCREDIBLE! The slide show is fabulous! Do it all the time....Those pictures are really incredible! You have so many talents and that includes being a great MOM.
Give it your all!
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